I am blank. I am numb, well maybe not numb because I do feel pissed. So numb isn't the word. I apologize in
advance if this is long....Not sure how I will go with this. Some of you know that my dh was in the ER a few weeks back with what we thought was shingles or
stress. Well, he went to one follow up appt and he just did the fucking opposite (sorry about the fbomb) he is working MORE! He says he is less stressed now
but he is full of shit. He went out of town this passed weekend to do inventory in the Northeast region (Ohio,WV, PA and NY) he barely called to check on us.
He has a higher up guy that I think he idolizes, this guy is older and SINGLE, well has a gf but he comes and goes as he pleases. Company policy says he cant
talk when driving...well, that means he can't talk to me hardly at all...I was blown away by his lack of concern for us. It's like the old husband I
used to have!!! The one I do not like. Wait it gets better. He had 3 VA appts on 8-25. I asked him, knowing how busy he is at work reconciling this inventory
if he was gonna make it to them. He has made the same appts before. He works within 10 minutes of the VA. He told me yes he was gonna make them. I talked to
him that morning and asked him if he went, he said No, but proudly said "but I called and cancelled" because he knows that I dislike (too easy of a
word) when he leaves them high and dry, I feel for the vets that WANT to be seen. Anyways. I was rather proud of him because he hasn't called to cancel
yet, he just has total disregard. So today, I get the mail and I sit down to open up the letter from the VA, there were 2. The first one was a few appt
reminders for Sept and the other one was his failure to show up letter. I called him and asked him if he cancelled those appts, he said YEP! Like a little
lying child. I said I had the letter and then he fessed up. I swear to heaven, that I felt like I was punched in the gut! I know that some men lie about so
much more but the fact that after all these years that he has to lie about this!!!!!!!
This isn't the only issue. There is tension in the air so freakin thick. He is a workaholic. He is in a manic work mode right now. And I am not sure about others with workaholic dhs but mine tells white lies...."Oh, I didn't even see you called", "I am walking out right now" "I am stuck in traffic"....."I got a call right when I said I was leaving".....Little white lies...nonetheless, they are lies. And they make my stomach churn. I am a mean spitfire of a woman child but I tell it like it is. I trust that the other person is able to handle the truth. I may avoid things at times, I am human but lying about my whereabouts like I am a damn child is downright unexceptable. I love that big baffoon, I really do but he has shaken the foundation on which we stand. It is now up to him to fix what he has done. Not me. I am not helping fix this. I am not.
This isn't the only issue. There is tension in the air so freakin thick. He is a workaholic. He is in a manic work mode right now. And I am not sure about others with workaholic dhs but mine tells white lies...."Oh, I didn't even see you called", "I am walking out right now" "I am stuck in traffic"....."I got a call right when I said I was leaving".....Little white lies...nonetheless, they are lies. And they make my stomach churn. I am a mean spitfire of a woman child but I tell it like it is. I trust that the other person is able to handle the truth. I may avoid things at times, I am human but lying about my whereabouts like I am a damn child is downright unexceptable. I love that big baffoon, I really do but he has shaken the foundation on which we stand. It is now up to him to fix what he has done. Not me. I am not helping fix this. I am not.





