Well, here it is 8:30am and DB just went to sleep about 45 min. ago. He will now sleep until 6 or 7 pm. I don't know why but this really really bothers me. I miss having him in the bed with me (he usually crawls into it about 20 min. before I have to get out) and while it's not too bad when I have work all day, I really hate it when I am off and there he is asleep through the whole thing. I was offered a promotion at work and I almost didn't take it because it would up my hours. My fear? If I only end up with half a day off every week, what if he sleeps through it? Sometimes I can't help but take it personally as it always feels like it coincides with my time off. There was one week when he had a perfectly normal sleep schedule while I was working 15 hours/day (meaning he'd get up when I left in the morning, but be asleep by the time I got home) and then when I had a day off suddenly he was sleeping all day. And sometimes it makes me mad because it's so irresponsible! For example,his debit card has been missing for a week, but he hasn't gone to the bank yet to replace it because he keeps sleeping through their open hours...To me, if there's something that needs doing get your butt out of bed and do it! It doesn't help that the only responsibility he has right now is his online class that he can do anytime he wants. He was willing to stay up extra to achieve his goals on World of Warcraft (He played it for a solid 9 hours last night which is another problem with the up-all-night system) but can't do something like go to the bank.
I know it's the PTSD and that sleeping at night is hard sometimes because of nightmares and such. After a few fights about it, I am trying really hard to keep my mouth shut and let it go. In the grand scheme of things, I know that it's really nothing and that I'm being unreasonable by being annoyed. It's a stupid thing to get so wound up about. And yet it still just really bothers me.
Sorry for the long vent about something so little, but like I said I'm really trying not to say anything to him because it just turns into a fight, but I still needed to say it.
Megan
I know it's the PTSD and that sleeping at night is hard sometimes because of nightmares and such. After a few fights about it, I am trying really hard to keep my mouth shut and let it go. In the grand scheme of things, I know that it's really nothing and that I'm being unreasonable by being annoyed. It's a stupid thing to get so wound up about. And yet it still just really bothers me.
Sorry for the long vent about something so little, but like I said I'm really trying not to say anything to him because it just turns into a fight, but I still needed to say it.
Megan





