Seriously, you guys are all so wonderful. It's so nice to know that I'm not the only one dealing with this crap. Nakiea, I called my insurance company Friday and found drs I can go to for myself so I'm going to do that first thing next week --thank you.

Marisa -- THANK YOU for telling me what you would have done. It's funny you say all of that because this weekend I had it. I can't take not having personal space anymore, so I started looking for apartments, and I figured (like you said) he'll follow. Unfortunately I cannot collect unemployment because I was nannying under the table for my last job and when I filed my taxes I filed way way lower than what I was actually making. Although I don't have an actual job (tons of interviews, no jobs), I have been babysitting more and more for extended family and famliy friends, which is helpful. I've been using that money to pay off debt, and putting some aside for an apartment. So I'm hoping that very shortly I'll be outa here, and hopefully dh will come with me. It's just all so sad because we really are perfect together when things are going well. And you're right -- I've been feeling myself totally resenting him. I get so disgusted when I see him on the computer all the time, so when I feel like that I leave. I usually just go to the book store and read, just to get out of the house and away. So thanks for sharing, I'm glad to see that I'm potentially headed in the right direction and haven't completely lost myself yet.

mrs P