SO SORRY. I LOST BOTH MY PARENTS TO ILLNESS AND IT IS SO DIFFICULT. MY MOTHER HAS BEEN GONE 19 YEARS THIS MONTH AND I STILL MISS HER SO MUCH. MY DAD DIED 14 YEARS AGO AND THERE ARE SO MANY TIMES I WISH I COULD TALK WITH HIM. I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU. I KNOW THIS IS SO DIFFICULT THERE ARE NO WORDS.....