first, have a hug. know that i have been where you are now - but that does nothing to ease your pain.

Mike Contris, a writer for The (Daily) Olympian wrote this about 35 years ago and it is so true.
"It is never nice to be an orphan, no matter how old you are."

Grieve, know that Father's Day will be lousy this year (as will the rest of the Holidays - buy a card for your Dad, sign it, put it the bottom of your drawer till a better day. Rejoice in the memory of good times with your Dad.

Mr. PTSD should stay in the background (usually will for funerals). if things get tense, tell him - I have only once in my life to attend my father's funeral (you can decide if you want to add - but more than once to have a wedding).

we're here, we care. have another hug - oh, and showers are a great place to cry.