Yesterday I had the BEST Thanksgiving I have ever had.  All of my children came over (my youngest had the new boyfriend- I adore him).  The boys helped their dad put up Christmas decorations outside (this was HUGE issue with dh last yr and I got nothing outside but a fight- so this yr I started the "tradition" that the boys would help him)- they had a blast with their humor and for the first time in a LONG time my boys and their DAD had a great time.   The laughter made me cry.  The girls helped me cook and then put up my tree- I will fix it today since it looks crazy but they tried- I think??  The whole family sat down to eat at the table (this never happens except on holidays) and talked and laughed for TWO HOURS!!  I was truly best to have a wonderful day (they dont happen very often lately).  Mr PTSD did not appear (I had set some pretty tight boundaries in place) and THAT is a HUGE blessing.  I made sure I told my dh after everyone left thank you and told him what a special day it was.  He looked at me and almost cried- I got to see the husband I married for just a moment- but then the eyes darken again and the combat vet was back- But I took some comfort that just for a minute I had him back- but then I cried later at the loss.   Roller coaster way of life we live- And people wonder why I am sometimes bitter.  Well hope everyones week will be wonderful- My dh and I leave on Wed for Punta Cana- Please pray for me that Mr PTSD stays away- I need this vacation!!!