breathe
 You are never going to be perfect......and that is too  much of an expectation to be placed on anyone. We break......we take all the pressure given to us. Lo and behold......if only we had a levee we could blow up releasing the pressure before our dam does break. Come here and vent a way! Venting does help. There have been times when I felt all I had was venting! I went months upon end just spewing my vents away.

A job is a good thing! It gets you away from the constant 24/7 situation that really wears one done. If I had ever had an inkling of an idea my dh could ever possibly been home 24/7 I would have really re-thought working at home. People ask me if taking care of 12 kids all the time is hard. Not nearly as hard as taking care of kids with" ONE" combat PTSD Vet there all the time.

It is a start.Without a start there cannot be a completion. So see......you are at the start gate  working towards the completion of the race. . We never always know how the race will turn out till the race is over!

Nakiea

Nothing changes if nothing changes !
Keep your chin up .....Don't take any wooden nickels!