Breathe,
My story is much like Hollywood's. My marriage started to completely fall apart after about 35 years. It was only about three years ago that he was diagnosed. Until then I spent many years trying to figure out what the heck was wrong with this guy. He was not the man I knew before he went to Viet Nam. He would not agree to counseling for himself; but would periodically suggest that something was wrong with me and encouraged me to go. One of the main reasons that I hung in there with him was that I knew what he was REALLY like and he managed to hide the rage and anger...until he finally melted down from the stress.

I hope you continue to communicate, no matter how far apart those moments may be. It really does help when you can find a way to talk. The best thing I could have done was start counseling for myself about a month ago. After only two sessions, I already feel empowered to begin the process of coming out a fog I've been in for many years. You are in my prayers. Please take care.