Thanks everyone for the support- I need it- Nakiea when I got ur text yesterday I was in the car with dh- I just started laughing hysterically out loud- U should of seen his face!!!!  Thank goodness I was getting out to go into the bank alone-  I made him take me into town last nite- go to dinner- and then go see my d dance studio perform a few numbers.  Have to say he would of given me a HORRID fight if not for the d part.  This hurts me so much, I am glad that he wants to see the kids things now even though it is too late and I have to admit I get very jealous when they act like it is a big deal- I was the one that was always there not him but I need to take a step back and just eat that frustration for the kids sake- at least they are getting a little of their dad- VERY little but whatever.  Anyway I was hoping he was going to go work out of town this week but so far no.  Tomorrow will be a bad day for me I know that denying that would not make it better but I also know I can get thru it.  My d is having lots of drama in her life so that also is an impact - add Mr. PTSD- sons last choir thing- and the dad thing and I have a recipe for disaster on my end and that is just THIS week with 3 more weeks just like it.  Hope the end of May comes SOON!!!  Well thanks for listening- Just knowing I am not alone and I can come and whine here makes a HUGE difference.  I really miss all of u and look forward to meeting all of the others.  Need to make a weekend trip or just a day (I don't care) to meet in Ft Worth- June???  Whatcha think Tammy??  Nakiea??  Are there any others close to come???  Just need a day just maybe at a hotel for ME.  I will keep u posted  Thanks everyone  Terri