Its been pouring rain here for the last few days - good old April showers - hard enough the dog won't go out side to do his business unless I hold an umbrella over him. What's getting me down is this ridiculous wait, knowing we have jumped through each hoop and then some. When I seek advice from other helpful sites we're usually told to do what we have done, its the long wait that is harmful. We are sliding into debt as basic needs are raising higher than our fixed income. The financial struggle is taking its toll. That and his continued asking if I think the VA will do right by him. Today we finally received notification that some of his more critical labs will be done here locally - which is a joke as the medical insurance we both have - (and pay for at close to $800 for medical) covers all lab work - it does not pay for psychiatric care which he does need. So far the local mental health clinic has accepted him in free of charge - recognizing not only our situation but numerous other vet families - but each slot taken is one not filled by someone with insurance who can pay.

I figure this offer is a mix up with his VA doctor as we have applied for a voucher to get services done here locally - for psychiatric care. The other option is to drive 70 miles one way for counseling - not a good idea when the one driving is struggling with depression. Yes, I will be so glad when some of this is behind us. When he received his first notification that he had SC PTSD the rater pointed to the fact that hd's condition must not be that severe as he seldom came in for treatment.... I wanted to just scream. At that time the nearest VAMC clinic was over 145 miles one way over a major mountain pass and the missed appointments were those skipped due to severe winter weather. I just need to hear from other wives that this is worth it, that they have been through this road.